The Heart is Nomadic

As your desire is, so is your will.

As your will is, so is your deed.

As you deed is, so is your destiny.

~The Upanishads

 

A Broken System

About 3 weeks ago I went to two different public school interviews. I last taught in public schools two years ago, but upon completing my Master’s Degree in literacy education, I figured I owed it to myself to at least TRY to go back.
Both interviews were for English as a Second Language positions in North Carolina, a state plagued with a reputation for being ranked 48th in education on a national average. I left both interviews more depressed and lost than I’ve felt in a long while. As I sat at those conference tables and was asked the exact same questions verbatim in both interviews I thought: I don’t belong here, I don’t want this job, I’m never going back. Each question was so generic, so scripted, and lacked any real fire or room for growth, expansion, or facilitation of a holistic experience in the education system.

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Intentions and Goals: To Fuel Your Soul

Rewind about 6 months to this spring. My friend Michelle and I are sitting on the floor with poster boards, old magazines, glue, and tea. We had discussed getting together to make vision boards for several weeks and had taken time to get extremely specific about our goals and desires. I have to admit, I was embarrassed about my desires. Some of what I wanted seemed too lofty, some too stereotypical, and some (gasp) even too traditional. But we spent the better part of several hours cutting and pasting like dutiful middle school children unaware that our desires, once planted firmly on poster board for all to see, were quickly beginning to weave themselves into our future plans.

 

Getting Truthful

I am always looking, searching, and dreaming. More than once a month I look at International teaching boards, Yoga jobs available on Yoga Trade, Indeed.com, LinkedIn, the list goes on. A major part of my vision board or desire map is that my life’s work be infused with passion. I am not the sort of person who is fulfilled by a traditional role. I am constantly searching for how I can make a difference, become involved with international education, and support myself while doing so. I’ve expended quite a bit of energy and filled the ears of many friends with my desire to combine my two loves: International ESL education and yoga. I’ve expressed this over and over again. Truthfully, the vision I had for myself was earning an a part time position at the local university ideally in the international education department and to be able to still continue to teach yoga on a weekly basis. But, the universe had other plans for me.

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The Core of Desire

When I read the job posting by an organization called Peace Through Yoga looking for an ESL instructor in Costa Rica, I paused. This sounded just like me. As it turns out, it sounded just like me to my future employers too. They were kind enough to put off two other candidates, to speak with me. Not only did they answer my questions but they met (via Skype) my boyfriend, my dog, and my expectations. With only 48 hours to make the decision, my boyfriend Ryan and I poured over all the options; what happens if we go, what happens if we don’t, and ultimately kept coming back to the same place? All our conversation, all our calculations, and all our internal guides were telling us to go! So, a few hours later we found ourselves eating dinner, signing the contract, and planning on moving our lives, our work, and our dogs to Hone Creek, Costa Rica!

Stay tuned for Part II…

 

 

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Meghan is a traveling yoga instructor and water woman. She has been wandering and teaching for over a decade. She is currently the lead teacher at Chicas Poderosas a girls’ empowerment school run by Peace Through Yoga in Hone Creek, Costa Rica.

@yogaroam

4 replies
  1. Keisha
    Keisha says:

    Meghan thank you SO much for sharing your story! I have zero interest in living a ‘normal’ life. I am currently planning my escape! I am grateful that I will be getting my yoga teacher cert in India in May. I just have to figure out what I’m doing for money before/after! Any ideas?? Thanks so much!! Xo

    • Meghan Stepnowski
      Meghan Stepnowski says:

      I am just seeing this now. I am sure your path has led you so many different way since India. I would love to know if this provided clarity for you and what you are up to. I think for me what it took was getting out of a really bad relationship and spending about 2 years by myself. Sounds no fun right? Actually at first it was horrible but after a while I realize the reason I wasnt getting what I wanted out of men, work, life, etc. was because I was not clear on what I did want. Its important to work on our focus and intention but also to allow ourselves to grow and change. What makes you feel like the best version of yourself?How can you work toward that daily?
      How was India? Thank you for posting a reply 🙂

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